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Monday, 26 April 2004
Evening Out With Friends
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Clocks
Saturday night I got a chance to go out with some friends from highschool. People I've known for a decade or more now. Friends who I've kept up with over the years at birthdays, graduations, weddings, etc. But this time, things felt a bit odd. I've always been slightly more real with them than other people, but they still don't know who I truly am and for some reason it was more obvious to me on Saturday. I have absolutely no idea how these people will take my transition but my guess is not very well. In fact I'm mostly terrified of telling them. So what did I do? Get drunk of course. Very very drunk. Now I know that sounds like taking the easy way out but I would have gotten drunk with them regardless. This time it just made it easier to talk with them. Is that wrong?


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Monday, 26 April 2004 - 8:45 PM EDT

Name: Kyle

Everybody feels anxiety from time to time. They're your old friends but soon there will be a new you. But that night wasn't the time to introduce the subject (drop the bomb if you will). You went out to have fun and booze are a great way to push the anxiety out of the way and relax. Worry another day.

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Tuesday, 27 April 2004 - 6:43 AM EDT

Name: Andrea

Thanks, Kyle. I think I felt bad because I've known these people for so long and still they really don't know who I am. Maybe I felt a little bit alone too (even among friends). Difficult stuff.

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Tuesday, 27 April 2004 - 11:12 AM EDT

Name: Kyle

Just remember it took a lot of courage to talk to your sister, and that worked out positively. I guess sooner or later your friends will find out that you've decided to be the real you, and though it's cliche, you'll discover who your real friends are. In the mean time it's okay to feel alone in the group. Don't worry about it. Just remember what Adam Duritz said, "I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass." Anywho, chin up.

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