Mirror Mirror
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: My Immortal
April must not be a very good month for blogging. When things get busy, my website seems to suffer. Oh well...

The last two or three days I've been having some definite self-image issues. Now keep in mind that when I look in the mirror I certainly can't always see where I'm headed, but usually at least once every few days I can look at myself and smile about the progress and be secure in my final destination. These past days that hasn't been the case. Could it be because I'm getting some mild regrowth after laser gave me a transiently clean face? Could it be because I needed a trim to keep things healthy and was forced to lose an inch of hair (2 months growing time)? Could it be because I've been deluding myself all along? Okay, well prolly not the last one, but It's difficult to deal with issues like this. Keep in mind that as a guy, I never had these kind of problems. Granted I looked male instead of female but I reconciled that fact with "If I have to look like a guy, I made out pretty good" and that always worked for the most part. Even as an awkward teen going through puberty (for the first time) I still felt somewhat confident (albeit unhappy) in the person I portrayed. So now, dealing with issues like these for the first time, I find myself less prepared.

I'm kinda on my way back up now. Just some passing insecurities that I chatted about with T* last night. Her support gets me through so much these days. I'm consoling myself with the fact that I'm getting my ears pierced next week. Can't wait!

Class calls...